TA TALKS BACK: WE ALL HAVE A LITTLE LEAH IN US
TA fan Diane sees a little Leah in herself.
I’ve never been Bella and I never will be. Leah…She’s someone that people know is there, on the fringe, never really fitting into a particular mold-never the pretty girl, the smart girl, the popular girl…the “it girl.” The girl that Bella is. Leah is…She’s someone who’s full of an empty ache over a man who is never going to be hers again, so she’s doing her best to suck it up and move on with her life because she wants him to be happy, but doesn’t really care if the rest of the people around her are miserable. What she wants doesn’t matter, as long as he’s happy. She’s learned to use sarcasm as her weapon of choice to keep people from getting too close and to keep the potential of pain at a distance. Leah isn’t someone average, yet she’s “every girl.†She’s had too much happen to her in her short life already to be like a “normal†person her age. She’s got the mindset of someone who is older and, to directly quote her, “a bitter harpy.†She’s…someone who is a lot like me.I’ll be the first one to admit I’m not fond of letting people get close. Getting close means you get hurt, a lesson that Leah & I both learned the hard way. But if someone does manage to break through the ice queen shell and prove that, in fact, they are NOT a complete jerk, we’d probably go to the ends of the earth to stand up for them, even if we might not necessarily happen to like that person. Leah figured out Jake wasn’t such a bad guy after all…I’m still waiting for someone to help me figure that one out. She’s 20 and considers herself a “genetic dead end†because no one has imprinted on her yet when most of her pack has found their soul mates, though the imprinting is what caused her to lose the one that she loves in the first place. I’m 31 and I’ve pretty much resigned myself to being “on my own†for the foreseeable future – no one has “imprinted†on me yet, either. I try not to let it bother me but, like Leah, I sometimes wonder “What’s wrong with me?â€
We’ve both got a few…anger management issues, I guess would be the proper description, and we can hold grudges with the best of them, too. We have both been known to fly completely off the handle about something before we know the whole story, often turning a potentially well-meaning gesture can turn into a declaration of war in about 3.76 seconds. I’m just glad my outbursts haven’t caused me to need a new wardrobe because I keep exploding out of my clothes. My need of a new wardrobe comes from my love of Twinkies and jelly donuts that help to soothe me.
I imagine her to be beautiful, not plain and boring like me. She’s stronger inside than I could ever hope to be.
In what ways are you like Leah?
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